Tuesday, 28 October 2014

Still Here, Still Alive

The title says a lot - and it's not a flippant one in the slightest. Over the last year (maybe longer?) I've not been well. And it's not something people talk about enough - it's not a physical condition, which makes it harder for many to understand. Depression and anxiety are subjects which many people feel embarrassed talking about, either as someone who is going through it or those who are around sufferers. Many people dismiss them, either through ignorance or small mindedness. Of course if you've never experienced these yourself, or haven't (knowingly) known someone who has experienced them, it's something which may be difficult to comprehend.

Some friends and family have turned out to be even more supportive and amazing than I could have hoped for! However some have been less impressive... You have thought I was contagious!

Hopefully there will be a few updates on here soon - I've done very little modelling over the last year really. I've had very little enthusiasm for many things sadly, but hopefully these things, as well as my own health, are improving.


  1. Welcome back! I have just celebrated 5 weeks free of anti-depressants myself after 6 years of treatment. I understand. Hope you find enjoyment and purpose in your modelling again.

  2. Good to see you are back. I too suffer from depression and anxiety. Try to do the things that you used to enjoy. It sounds easy but it can be a battle! There are good days and tough days but think of the good people in your life and you will get through it.

  3. Hello James,
    I know what you mean buddy! I have times when I simply cannot focus on anything and take no interest in the hobby, barely any in life but these things do pass some quickly, some not so quickly. A good long walk or bike ride by oneself sometimes helps, as do clear weather days (for me, anyway). Hope you continue on an upwards path, Cheers,
    John E.

  4. Have a look at https://www.headspace.com/ It helps. Best wishes.

  5. Thank you for your kind responses!

    Writing about it is still not easy but does, in itself, seem to have a positive effect. However, seeing how supportive people can be (and I've had some lovely e-mails about this post too) has been very good too.