|The advancing model of 47380 Immingham - Lima model as it's basis with Ultrascale wheels and a selection of Plastikard parts! The underframe used the 'Bayer Method' as described by the former Rail Express editor, Gareth Bayer, a good few years ago in DEMU Update. Soon it will have a lovely selection of Shawplan etchings added too.|
And with all of this it makes it all the more frustrating for me - questioning while I can feel so low with so many good things around me. But depression doesn't really make sense; it's indiscriminate and can have a huge impact on people from all backgrounds and walks of life. And yet as a society we still don't really do enough to look after everyone's mental health and do poorly when it comes to provide resources to look after and treat those affected. The ridiculous waiting times should make the government ashamed... It makes me all the more appreciative to have been re-referred and seen so quickly this time. And hopefully it'll benefit not just me but also family and friends.
The new therapy is taking quite a different approach from last time - I was asked what would I like to be able to do or do differently. A main one was spending with my family but also just with Suzi too - she's just finished her degree so it should be a lot easier now! But it's also the 'extras' which I really wanted to do again - cricket and modelling being the two main ones. I've played cricket since I was a child, all at the same club too but this last year I've just not been able to face it and really don't know why. And modelling, just sit there and couldn't really get into it and sometimes almost seemed scared to do anything. Writing that down makes it seem just silly! But when you're engulfed by it, it just takes over.
But... This last week or so I've made a big effort and forced myself to or make something and it's lovely how good do something creative has felt! And you can see the progress made so far.
It'll be 47380 Immingham running as it was just before withdrawal in the summer of 1992. It was a bit of an oddball - oval buffers for traffic on the Barton branch, cut away buffer beams, extra cab vents, repositioned nose steps and probably a few other details I've forgotten or not noticed yet. Every time I look at newly found photographs I seem to notice something else! It's based on a Lima model with old steel tyred Ultrascale and will soon be covered in Shawplan etchings!
If all of the above seems a little far fetched or simply rubbish, well you've probably been lucky enough to not have experienced poor mental health or seen those close to you go through it. Either way, looking after our mental health is very important.
And maybe railway modelling is good for your health after all?!